Monday, 23 July 2012

Chapter 1.15 A Recommendation

Drea and Leon, my two darlings.



Alexander and I had decided to give them names that both meant courage. Sometimes I wonder if I deserved the two of them at all, they were both so good. Right from the start they slept right through the night. After my maternity leave was up, Victoria said I could take them into the base with me. She had a nursery there for her twins, so she saw no reason that Drea and Leon couldn’t use it as well. According to Ariel it was Victoria’s version of an apology, I didn’t believe that, since before she had the guts to ask if she could have blood from the two of them.

“I’ve been talking to Victoria,” Alexander said, as were we going to pick up Drea and Leon.                           “What about?” I questioned.                                                                                                                                             “About testing them for signs of exposure to Project Air. Before you say anything, I think it’s a good idea just to test them. Sometimes you need to know things, just to make sure,” he said, frowning as he held Drea.
                                                                                                                                                                           I was going to shout at him but then I stopped myself he had obviously put a lot of thought into it and maybe he was right. If they were affected I would want to know, I doubted it but then again if Victoria had asked, Nicholas probably thought it was possible they were.                                                                                    ”When their a year old, and just one blood test,” I told him.


“Deal,” he agreed.                       

“Victoria, Mayflower needs to talk to you,” I said, walking into her office. She wasn’t there; I looked around, noticing a pen on the ground. I went over to pick it up, and something on her computer caught my eye. I know it was a bad thing to do, but it’s not like I purposely saw it in the first place.

The name Jayden Smith caught my eye and then the fact Angel Darvill was underneath it.  The document was dated back to when I had started at the base. I only got to read one line before I heard a sound. Angel Darvill carries the recommendation of Jayden Smith, to work with Project Air.  I quickly put the pen in its place and turned to face Victoria.                                                                                                
“Angel, what are you doing?” she asked suspiciously.
                                                                                                      
“Mayflower wanted to see you and I just put a pen back it was on the floor,” I explained.                                              “I see,” she said pushing pass me, “you can tell her I’m on my way.”                                                                            

I nodded and headed out, but the questions were buzzing around in my head. Had I been recommended to work here and why by Jayden Smith? If he was my mother’s friend, how would he know I wanted to work at the base? He didn’t have to I realized, there were lots of doctors here. Though why Project Air? It was obviously dangerous, but Braden had pushed me towards the dangerous as well. They had both wanted me to know about Project Air, but I didn’t have a clue why.  I need to stop I realized, I had made a promise and I wasn’t going to change that now.

“So you were serious when you said small,” Ariel said as she came in.
“Yes, maybe on their 5th birthday I’ll go big,” I told her.

  Drea and Leon were turning one and I had only invited Ariel, Livvy, Issac and Daniel. It seemed weird they had been around for a year. Life had basically progressed the same, I guess since I refused to break my promise to Alexander.                                                                                                                                 “That’s a deal now,” she said.                                                                                                                                                


“So its all done,” I said holding a screaming Leon to me.

They had just had their blood test and well Drea didn't notice it at all, for Leon having a blood test was the end of the world.                                            
Angelica nodded, “I’ll call you when I get the results back. Though to be honest I think this is Nicholas grasping at straws.”
                                                                                                                                                                        Alexander frowned and said, “He’s not getting anywhere that’s why he’s using Victoria isn’t it.”                             “I guess Project Air doesn’t work in small doses,” Angelica told him nodding.                                                                  

Alexander muttered, “Sometimes I wish he had died,” then walked out.                                                              I mouthed sorry to Angelica and then followed him.                                                                                                                        

“What was that?” I asked when we got home.                                                                                                                    “I’m just sick of this all and I’m worried. If Nicholas isn’t getting anywhere then  he’ll want to use Victoria to do something bad,” Alexander said.                                                                                    
“What happened when you saw Nicholas?” I asked slowly.
                                                                                                
“He just yelled at me, like it was my fault. He’s crazy, he’s lost his mind. He’s obsessed with finding a way to live forever. I don’t even know who he is anymore,” Alexander said annoyed.                                                                This worried me through it all Alexander stayed calm. I’d never seen him like this, was it even possible that someone that was supposed to be dead could cause this much trouble?                                          
“I’m taking my job back at Project Air,” he said finally.
“But I thought,” I started but Alexander interrupted me ,” Victorias up to something and it needs to stop.”                                                                                                                                                                                                 ”But I thought we weren't looking into it,” I said confused.
                                                                                                                                  
“No you’re not I am,” Alexander said and the way he said made me decide not to argue.


I wasn’t happy with being excluded out of this Project Air thing, so I decided to ask Angelica the question that had been bugging me.                                                                                                                               “Was I recommended to work here by Jayden Smith?” I asked, Angelica stopped a little shocked.                                                                                                                                                                She sighed and said, “You know you’ve got a really bad knack for finding things out that you shouldn’t. Yes and that’s all I’m going to say.”                                                                                                                   “Okay, that’s all I want to know,” I said, although it was a lie, there were lots of things I now wanted to know. Yet, I refrained deciding that if Braden Smith ever came back I would ask him about everything. I knew how unlikely that was so I didn’t have a problem with making that promise to myself.

Ariel was upset with having to work on the normal side, but she thought it was good that Alexander and Victoria would be able to talk again. I felt bad about the fact that they were probably never going to be friends again. Which I found sad, when I everyone talked about how close they use to be. Another thing Nicholas had messed up I guessed.

Tuesday, 17 July 2012

Chapter 1.14 Make It Big Enough For Two


"Angel, I need to talk to you," Alexander called through the bathroom door.
 "I'm so annoyed, why should Mayflower be allowed to come to work sick. Just because she’s one of the five "families", it’s not fair," I complained to him. I had a stomach bug, all because Mayflower came to work with it. I hated being sick.

 "Angel, can you come out?" Alexander called.
 "Arghh Victoria is so not happy I mean why should she be so irresponsible. I know she’s my friend but I'm starting to regret this friendship," I went on to him.
 "Angel, come out," he yelled now. I was surprised;
I pulled the door open grumpily and said, "What?"

 "I have news, Angelica told me, or should I say Nicholas called Victoria, Victoria called Angelica, Angelica called you but got me instead. Anyway he noticed on your blood test well you’re pregnant. So you’re not sick at all. We're having a baby," he said excitedly.
 My stomach dropped, this wasn't good, not at all. How was I going to be able to raise a baby? My parents had never been there for me, what if I was like that with my baby? What if I died like my mother? I couldn't raise a child. I shook my head and ran back into the bathroom and sank down on the floor.

I wanted my child to be happy, but how could it be happy if it was going to have me as its mother?
 "Angel," Alexander called quietly through the door.
 "I just felt sick again, I'll be out in a second," I told him, it’s not like I could let him know I didn't want to be a parent. Plus it didn't matter, it was too late now.

 "Oh my goodness, this is great. Our two little babies. They'll be like us best friends," Olivia said when I told her on the weekend.

 I was coming round to the idea. I knew it was going to happen eventually, that’s why Alexander had taken the Darvill name so we could carry it on, but just not now.
 "Okay, but what if I'm not good at it," I started then stopped myself, Livvy was happy and I just needed to stop worrying.

"You'll be fine, is this because of your mom. Honestly Angel I think you will be great. You can learn from the fact your mother died. You imagined what she was going to be like right?" Olivia asked me.
 "Yeah, all the time," I said wondering where this was going.
 "So be everything you thought your mother was going to be," she told me.

 "Your right thanks," I said.

 Victoria told me she wanted me to work right up until a month before the baby was due. Alexander was angry, but I said it was fine. After all everyone knew Victoria had been working went she went into labour. Although I must say, if somebody did try to do something with Project Air I didn't really think a pregnant person could stop them. Though to be perfectly honest, I don't think that was the reason I was there. I knew from Angelica that both Victoria and Nicholas were annoyed that my exposure wasn't having any effect. Me, I loved the fact I was no help to them.

 Alexander had called in some help, for building a second story because he didn't want to put the baby in the spare room, which I was quite happy about. It was one of those days that I went into my scan alone, Angelica had insisted on being my doctor and I agreed happily. It was then that she gave me news, which nearly made me cry with fright.
 "How’s the building going?" I asked him staring at the staircase that seemed so out of place.

 "Great, should be done by the time your due," he said giving me a smile, as I came to cuddle up next to him.                                                                                                                                                                              

"Well, as long as your make it big enough for two," I told him. 
"Why," he said giving me a confused look then it changed into a huge smile, "we're having twins," he announced to me like I didn't know.

 "Yep," I said giving him a kiss.
 Trying to ignore the voice in my head telling me I was ruining two babies’ lives, I was going to be fine I hoped.

 "Daniel's sleeping. That’s going to be you except with two soon," Livvy told me as I came in. She had just had her baby.

 "How does it feel to be a mother?" I asked sitting down.
 "Gosh I never knew I could love something this much until I saw Daniel. I feel so blessed, well maybe I feel like this when she’s sleeping," she joked.
 "I'm so happy for you. I must say I really just want the twins out of me. I'm sick of carrying around two little humans. They sleep when people are around, and are up kicking me all night," I complained, but I did love the feeling of knowing I had grown two tiny babies.
 "Well just don't expect to get a good night’s sleep when their born," she warned.
 "Trust me, I'm not," I said.

 The last month of my pregnancy I spent lazing around home.

It was one of those days that I started having pains. I didn't want to call anyone though just in case it was a false alarm.

I started timing the contractions just to know how it was going.

People had told me that your first pregnancy took a long time, Nadia Graham told me her first with Nicholas and Alexander had been 8 hours, so I figured I had a while to go. It was during one of these contractions that Alexander came home. He must have been really worried when he walked into the house and I was screaming.
 "Angel, we have to get to the hospital. Come on I've get the bag. Just get in the car," he said sounding really calm. I waddled my pregnant self to the car after the contraction was over.

Alexander was there a second later with everything. He told me he had called Angelica and she was going to make her way there, it really shocked me how much of a handle he had on the situation.

Monday, 16 July 2012

Chapter 1.13 Love, Love, Love

"You look so much like your mother did," Jade said, as I came out in my wedding dress, my mothers as well. Alexander and I had decided to have the wedding as soon as possible, so Jade and Santoz could just extend their trip
"Thanks that means alot," I said feeling like I was going to start crying.
"Wow you look exactly like your mother looked like in that dress, I mean what I think she would have looked like," Braden told me as he came in.

Orignally Santoz was going to walk me down the aisle, but Braden had asked saying it was his fathers biggest regret that he couldn't walk my mother down the aisle and he had wanted to remedy that. How could I refuse? Plus I was hoping it would give me time to ask him about China, but I remembered I couldn't do that because I had promised Alexander.
I smiled at him, "You lot are going to make me cry."                        
Ariel came again after going to answer a phone call, "Victorias not coming apparently shes to busy with the twins, Nicole and Lani," she told us and you could tell she was annoyed.
"Thats alright," I said secretly happy.
"Anyway are we ready, I have a flight to catch, so lets go," Braden said and I couldn't help but giggle. Braden had this way of completly ignoring social conventions.
                                                                 
"Okay," I said.

Avalanche City- Love, Love, Love - Listen to the song as your read

Girl I say if only life would lean our way
Well you and me, we'd run away to be wherever our adventure waits
 
And time would be a distant memory, nobody could tell us to stay
Well I've been dreaming ever since I've seen you, heaven when you came my way

I heard you heart say love love love
I heard your heart say love love love

I heard your heart say love love love
I heard your heart say love love love

Oh it seems awfully hard for us to find at all
And all these tears will wash away and we'll be clean, but we'll have nothing more

Well I can say there'll come another day where money and our time affords
And on our hands our wrinkles understand we never really wanted more

I heard your heart say love love love
I heard your heart say love love love

I heard your heart say love love love
I heard your heart say love love love

And all the life about to go is in my mind
Cause all the loudest voices in the world are never right

I heard your heart say love love love
I heard your heart say love love love

I heard you heart say love love love
I heard your heart say love love love

Wooaahh love love love
Wooaahh love love love

Wooaahh love love love
Wooaahh love love love


"I love you," I whispered.
"I love you too," Alexander whispered back.

Thursday, 12 July 2012

Chapter 1.12 Everything Works Out For the Best

"So if I asked you a question would you promise to tell me the whole truth, no matter how bad it is?," I asked Alexander as we drove to Olivias place. I had just picked him from the airport and now I was going to Livvys place for wedding prepartions. Not that I hadn't already been there earlier on.
 "Yes, except if its about Nicholas. That I don't want to talk about," he said. "Its not, whats Room 232?," I asked and was surprised at Alexanders reaction.
He flinched and started shifting in his seat. "I don't know what it is now, but I know what it used to be. It was the place they took the dying people, the ones that had been exposed. They had to build a place for them because there screams used to be unbearable, its soundproofed," Alexander replied, shifting uncomfortably on his seat.
 "Oh, I guess I can see how you stepped down," I said quietly staring out the window, it was hard to believe that people would just sit by and let that happen.

"Angel, I have to ask you favour and I'm doing it because...I love you," he said, sounding really nervous.
 "I love you too," I said surprising myself, I guess I had for a while but never really realized it, but I was so happy that he had said it.
 He grinned at me like a little kid, then he frowned again and said, "Promise me, you'll stop looking into Project Air. Just leave it, stop trying to work things out. I don't care what people say its dangerous and you don't want to get involved with the Nicholas's of the world and trust me there are alot of them."
 I thought about it for a while then nodded slowly, "Okay I promise."
 "Good, anyway its Olivias wedding, so lets just not worry," he said and I smiled. I must admit I was really happy that Alexander got on so well with Livvy and Issac, since he was always encouraging me to see them. "No lets not worry," I said smiling back.

 Olivia was well a glowing bride, although that might be a bit because she was pregnant but still. She looked amazing and happy, and when I saw her walk down the aisle with Santoz all my doubts about this wedding went away. You could tell by the way her and Issac looked at each other that they were crazy about each other, I wondered why I had never noticed before. Then they were married and I knew without a doubt that Livvy and Issac although would have their moments they were going to be just fine.

                 






"I'm really happy my girls have both found such great guys," Aunt Jade told me at their reception.                                                                                                                                                                                     "Thanks, but did you ever really doubt us?," I asked joking.                                                                                         "No, not once," she said giving me a hug, and walking off to talk to Livvy.                                                      "Can I have this dance?," Alexander asked me, holding at his hand.                                                                  "Of course," I laughed.                                                                                                                                                               "So will you come to our spot tomorrow night at hmm say around 7?," Alexander asked with just a little nervous twinge to his voice, as we dance.

                                                                                                             
"I think I can manage that, if your lucky," I teased smiling at him.

I made my way to our spot the next night, shriving in my jumper.

I was really hoping Alexander had brought a blanket or something. I gasped when I saw the set up he had ready.    
"Whats all this for?," I asked shocked.
                                                                                                                                
"Do I really need a reason?," he asked, faking offence.                                                                                              "I suppose not, its lovely," I said taking his hands.                                                                                                         We had our dinner and soon my coldness seemed to vanish.
                                                                                                        

"Angel I need to ask you something," Alexander said getting down on one knee.
                                                   
I stepped back suprised, was this really happening?                                                                                                                  "I never thought I'd meet someone like you, then I never thought I'd be able to have you as my own. Now that I have you, I never want to let you go will you Angel Elizabeth Darvill allow me to have the happiness of calling you my wife, for now and forever?."
                                                            

I was shocked, how could things this good actually be happening to me?                                                                            "Yes, a million times yes," I squealed, hey I was allowed to be like a child.

He put the ring on my finger and I don't think I'll ever feel this happy ever again.

I hugged him holding on tight, maybe things were really going to get better now. Everything works out for the best.